Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I'm so sad...

One of the few people who were a constant presence in my life died.
I feel so very sad...

She was one of those people you can't not love.
She was very very kind, a good listener and perfect advisor and she was able to understand what couldn't be said.
I was about 16 or 17 when I first met her and she learned me a lot about the people around me and about myself. I'm certain that I wouldn't have been as good a mother if she hadn't been available to ask questions, listen and smile. The wise smile.
She should have been my grams daughter and I've always thought it strange that they never met. They belonged to each other.

Because she lived at a place I could hardly reach with the children I hadn't seen her for a while. I missed her growing old.
We wrote long, long letters and they always sounded young and energetic, that I didn't realise there would be a time without her.

She was a strong woman. Strong of mind, and with an equally strong opinion. Well thought through and always open for different views, but strong and well worded nevertheless.
That very same straightforwardness, with compassion and care, was what molded me into the person I've become. My gram, dad and she made me into the strong person I am. And also into the feeling person I am.

I was happy we finally got a car and we planned to go and visit her with the kids next month.
We can't anymore.

One of the most creative, kindest and wonderful people is no more.


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