Monday, November 10, 2008

My monday today

november 10 2008

Went with my second son to have a look at the new art academy.

I felt at home when I walked in and now I have a strong feeling of wanting to work there.

I don't thin it's the place for my son to start a professional carreer, but when the school we're going to visit is nothing, I'm sure he will choose this academy.
We're unable to afford it, but with lots of effort I think we'll get a grant for him.

When we were still talking I got a call from home.

Again my autistic son was driven to the edge by his father.
I heard him on the background, and his father kept on talking.
No way I was able to use the moment he was taking a breath. He wasn't, lol!

Then finally I told him we were still in the academy, and he hung up.


On my wau home I saw a doll in a second hand job.
Porcelain head, etc etc.

My son and I threw all our coins together and we had just enough for one.
There's another one and he'll get it tomorrow when it isn't sold already.
We asked the woman in charge to put it aside until tomorrow, but she refused.

Well, that was an impulse buy. The first one in ages!!!

When I arrived home all was quiet.
My son felt rotten about what had happened.
He was unable to find socks.
They're always in the same drawer, but hej, some autists invent the world each day again.
Ironically enough, his father had forgotten about that drawer too.

I wonder whether I'm the only sane person in our household.

When his father came home again, I told him that in no way I was interested in hearing what had happened and I certainly didn't want to hear how stupid the children are as that drawer is used for his socks too for over 20 years!

Today is the day for the caregivers.

Well, I can't be away from home for three hours.
I'm needed.

Why does that feel so rotten?

1 comment:

  1. Sorry to hear you have so much stress in your life. I know how you feel. I've been the only caregiver to my husband who has been a quadriplegic for over 20 yrs. and I rarely get a break. I know that this is a stressful life, but it is also so very rewarding. Even so, sometimes we just need to take some time for ourselves.


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