Saturday, September 20, 2008

Would You Take Them Back?


september 20 2008



Would You Take Them Back?



1. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back?

Well, I don't have real exes. Married but once.

But I've had relationships. Some were friendships in which none of the two acknowledged the crush to the other.

Do I take them back...

My first real love... with promisses for the future.
Yes.
When I saw him at the reunion I fell for him like in the old days, and everybody noticed. He felt special to me too.
I don't know if in the future, when his wife wouldn't be there anymore, I could lift him up and away of the grief for her and his memories.
But when he gives me a chance, I sure would.
He makes me feel myself. And he makes me feel far more open and radiant than I am with others.

H.W.... The handsome blackhaired crazy friend who loved to see me, and who made me smile.
Even with his arms around me I felt kissed.
I'm not sure...
We were in love a long, long time, and then someone caught him with her nice words, needing attitude.
Whenever I'll meet him again I doubt I want to have him back as a partner.
He doesn't make me feel secure.

Hans. v. L.
He went to Portland, Oregon with his wife and I will always remember his eyes when he stepped in his car.
He visited after 9 years and it made me so happy, even though it was for a few hours.
Often I wish to see him again, because I want to know what I feel about him.
Far too late I realised he's one if the persons in my life that made me feel OK and living in the moment. We were so OK with each other that I realised I loved him when he was gone.
We studied together and accepted each other completely.
He made me search for my deeper me, without feeling uncomfortable.
He was one of the only people who really cared.

And there's M. Kind of crazy, with lots of wisdom.
I wish we saw more of each other at the moment. But he's a loner.

And H, who kicked me out of his live because I loved him more than he could afford?
I'm sure he won't "take me back", because I won't live up to his expectancies.
He doesn't even know how much he meant and means to me.
He's my spiritual brother.... guess it's time he realises that.
But our bond feels like it stretches over many more lives.

2. What was the first car you drove? What happened to it?

I don't have a car.

3. What’s the longest amount of time you have driven a car non-stop?

Well, I've been sitting quit without falling asleep for 5 hours.
Does that count too?

4. Have you ever been stood up on a date? If yes, when?

No, not by others than the father of the children.
He made a habit of it and I didn't realise it was better not to take that relationship any further.
I think I'm still paying for that each and every day.

5. What TV network do you watch the most?

BBC1. That's not even our national network.

6. Pick out a song you like that has special meaning to you. Share with us what song is it, and what’s the meaning to you.

In the autumn it's Donna Nobis Pacem.
When I was at school and at university we went for a walk of 3 days every autumn.
"We" were thousands of Catholic young people. The name: Pax Christi Voettochten.
First I went as a normal participant, later as one of the leaders.
It was great to spend all the time with each other talking about subjects that were important at that age.
Three levels of communication were adressed:
  • me - me (how do I think about myself, how do I improve myself, what do I want, etc etc.

  • me - the other(s)

  • me - God


We often sang the song during those years.

This is a version I've found on internet:


7. Who was your first celebrity crush on?

Ron Ely, the tarzan of the series.

He's older now, but still very attractive in my eyes.

8. What is your favorite romantic comedy movie?

Mmm, have to think about that. I don't know.

9. It has been said, "First Loves Are Never Over." Is this true for you?

My childhood love is over. I've never seen him anymore.

But my first real love... it isn't over.

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5 comments:

  1. I know a little something about Dona nobis pacem. Ever heard of the Peace Globe movement? I hope you'll join in. Great answers to Sat9!

    I am up here.

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  2. So you loved the King of the Jungle! Interesting answers this week! Enjoy your SAturday...

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  3. I don't think that we ever really get over the loves of youth.

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  4. Great answers, Laane. I hope your love life works out well.

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  5. I totally forgot the Tarzan guy....great answers, btw. Have a good weekend!

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